Can I be frank with you? It has never stopped me before, right? HA! So here goes a few of my thoughts lately:
Dennis and I had a WONDERFUL vacation to New York City. My favorite place on earth and it was so much fun enjoying it with my husband and seeing it through his eyes (it was his first time there). We had 5 days of FREEDOM! Five days of excitement without a care in the world. I have to say he also surprised me and upgraded my wedding ring for me while we were there. He had it in the works for a LONG time as our dear friends Bill and Adrienne’s jeweler is there in the Diamond District and they conspired together unbeknownst to me and surprised me with a new ring. It is gorgeous and exactly what I wanted. Dennis worked a lot of off-duty jobs to make enough to pay for it. If you know my husband he is a “cash only” guy. So it took him a while to save for it, but he did. The sacrifice behind the ring means even more than the ring itself.
A few other pictures from NYC:
So let me be honest……coming home after a vacation like this is hard (it would be for anyone). I mean we all love vacation and coming home to reality (whatever that reality is for you) is always a drag! I can only speak for myself but coming home from this trip I kinda hit rock bottom. I am climbing back up out of the pit but I came home to a sick little girl, I got sick, Dennis got sick and the reality of all that freedom and life I lived in those 5 days was really hard to lose! Just being honest. I don’t have a lot of freedom to just go and do in my life. Hannah and I are here, at home, 24/7. Dennis comes home from work and about once a week I head out (like I did Tuesday night) and run any errands that need to be run. Every so often I meet my cousin Brooke, my sister-in-law Sharon or some friends for dinner (but those are few and far between). So, I kinda emotionally crashed when I came home. I always do…..after any kind of trip; but this one more than others. Mainly because of Hannah being sick; that is never easy. She is now on day 11 of being sick…..I am praying she will turn the corner soon and we can put this illness behind us but the past 11 days have been hard……no sleep, high fevers, lots of congestion, coughing and SNOT! UGH, so over it! HA!
Now onto my ramblings……You know, even I have a hard time speaking out and standing up for what I believe. Every now and then I get a bit of courage and allow myself to really open up but you know that leaves you vulnerable. Vulnerable to others criticism and hatred. What I feel or think could appear to be offensive; which believe it or not I try not to be. But, sometimes not standing up, not sharing your views on life; sitting by and keeping your mouth shut doesn’t work either. I have friends from one end of the spectrum to the other. I have liberal friends, gay friends, friends who are a different color or nationality. I have friends who don’t believe in God and/or are a different religion than me. I have older friends and younger friends. I have rich friends, poor friends and those in the middle. I do try really hard to be careful but I also am not going to be viewed as “politically correct” because that is not who I am. So, although I try to be careful sometimes I do get gusts of courage and I speak out. Not to offend, but to stand true to who I am and I proud of who I am and what I believe. So, please keep this paragraph in mind if you continue to read further…….
I have another love/hate relationship with Facebook again! People, I am so sick of the political drama and unfortunately I find myself getting sucked into it. It is constant…..the latest in it all is the gun control talk. I know it is ALL TALK too. I mean what are people really accomplishing by arguing on Facebook? I posted something the other day out of exhaustion and got tons of comments but I ended up deleting it because I just didn’t want to respond. I had so much I could say but I was weary, exhausted and I don’t want to fight with people. Let’s face it, we are all different. We all have different thoughts, feelings, emotions, and reasons for our political, religious and moral stances; but for the life of me there are some things I just don’t understand. I am beginning to see that just like I will never understand the liberal perspective; they in turn will never understand mine. I am sure just like I want to shake some people, they want to do the same to me. I don’t get it……we have such a different view on so much important stuff and I don’t know what can be done about that. I know this…..I will continue to take a stand for what I believe. I will try to do it with grace and love but I am not going to back down either. I believe and hold tight to my 2nd amendment rights. I believe in the Right to Life as I am strongly against the murder of innocent unborn babies. I believe we need our borders secured and I believe in the death penalty….and the list goes on. I am so far right winged that I won’t eat the left-wing of a chicken (at least that is what Dennis says about me). It is who I am not what I was taught or how I was raised (although I was raised very conservatively). But, I do have a mind of my own. I have done a lot of thinking in my 46 years of life and I know what I believe, who I am and better yet WHOSE I am……(I belong to Jesus if you didn’t understand that part). So, just like I have a ton of friends and family on the more liberal side of the aisle who are standing up and fighting for what they believe in (which is their right) I am going to continue to do the same. Don’t you just love that about America? We have the rights and liberties afforded to us (thank you for all who paid the ultimate sacrifice for my freedom) so that we can be bold enough to stand for what we believe. We are so blessed to live in a county where we can speak our minds without the fear of censorship or retaliation. I pray that always stands true. I will end this blog after this one thought about guns, gun control and where I stand…….
Some people want certain weapons banned, stricter laws on purchasing firearms, age increases for purchasing firearms, etc. I will admit, some of the things I am hearing I can agree with but others are just absurd. I think the media makes it so much worse too. The media plays with people’s emotions and is extremely liberal and one-sided. The liberal agenda is to make guns the bad thing instead of making the people behind the guns the bad thing. A gun is only as dangerous as the person behind it. There is evil in this world. There are evil people in this world and those evil people can use cars, guns, bombs, knives…..anything they can find to bring destruction. I was raised with guns. My dad put a gun in my hand at the age of 5! I shot my first gun as a 5-year-old child and he showed me what that gun could do. He taught me to respect a gun; that it wasn’t a toy. He taught me how to load it, unload it, shoot it. We spent many a Saturday out at the range shooting targets. He wanted me to know how to defend myself if the need ever arose and I can tell you with 100% assuredness that I can and will do just that if I need to. I have a love for guns. I love to shoot them but I am not evil and would never ever hurt anyone unless it was to defend myself or my child. I can say very confidently that all responsible gun owners feel the same way I do. Guns are for protection. We might need them one day and I am very confident in my ability to use one if needed. Guns are not evil…..I actually laugh when I hear “that is a mean looking gun” when people talk about AR-15’s. The gun can only be “mean” if the person behind it has evil intentions. Guns aren’t the problem…..Evil people and this evil world are the problems. I will leave my gun talk with this…….Dennis told me not too long ago “the number one rule in negotiating is you NEVER give up a right or liberty you already have as you will never get it back.” So, that is why so many of us will push back against any kind of new legislation or laws that try to take away what we already have. Will it happen? I don’t know. I can’t see the future; I would hope not because I know in my heart that I want good people with guns surrounding me to be ready for the bad people with guns who will always find a way no matter what. Bad/evil people have no use for laws, rules or restrictions; this I know. So, no gun laws or restrictions will ever stop anyone……except the good people who follow the law and that would not be good for any of us.
Until next time………