Ramblings Of An Angry White Woman

I am disgusted…..disgusted by people’s hearts and the hatred, evilness, corruption, dishonor, disloyalty and the disrespect of so many Americans.

First and foremost I am a Christian.  I love Jesus and in the Bible He tells me that He created ALL of us (red, yellow, black and white) and He loves us.  He created us for a purpose.  He formed us in our mother’s womb and we are precious in His sight.  Your skin color doesn’t make him love you any more or any less.  He doesn’t see or care how much money you have in the bank, what kind of home you live in or what kind of car you drive.  He doesn’t give a rats behind what religion you are (all He cares about is that you know that He was born of a virgin, was sinless but was willing to die for your sins and rose again to build a place for you in Heaven; if you just accept His gift of eternal life).

Second, I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend……I love my husband and daughter and my extended family with all I have.  I even have differences of opinion with MANY of them (political, spiritual and other things) but we can agree to disagree and still love each other.  I am teaching my daughter to love people.  To respect those in authority over us (the way I was taught to do).  I was taught and I am teaching my daughter that you respect and honor your leaders…..the President, teachers, police officers, etc. You might not agree with everything they do or say but you RESPECT THE POSITION OF WHICH THEY HOLD!  I am teaching my daughter not to look at gender, race, social or economic status but instead to look at PEOPLE!  I honestly DO NOT care if you are black, white, asian or hispanic…..I will treat you with kindness, love and respect and I expect the same from you.  I don’t care if you are gay or straight.  I will treat you with the love of Jesus and kindness always.  I don’t care if you are rich, poor, young or old……your age and status in life doesn’t mean a thing to me……I just see a person that God loves and I am commanded to love you too.  That is what the Bible tells me to do.  Even if you don’t believe in the God I serve, I will still love you….I might pray extra hard for you to see the one true God but I will still love you with the love of Jesus.

Third, I am an AMERICAN.  I love my country.  I bleed red, white and blue and I will ALWAYS stand in respect when I hear our National Anthem and I will salute the flag out of my love for my country and the men and women who have paid the ultimate sacrifice for me and the freedoms I enjoy daily.  I have the right to vote and I do!  I have the right to carry a gun and I do!  I have the right of free speech (hence what I am doing right now).  I have the right to freedom of religion.  I have the right to come and go wherever I want, whenever I want as long as I obey the law.  I have many rights all given to me (and I want you to hear this part)…..THESE RIGHTS ARE ALL GIVEN TO ME BECAUSE OF THE MEN AND WOMEN WHO HAVE FOUGHT AND DIED TO MAKE IT POSSIBLE.  OUR FREEDOMS THAT WE TAKE FOR GRANTED CAME AT A PRICE.  A PRICE OF DEATH TO SO MANY PEOPLE!  Mothers, fathers, siblings, children, aunts, uncles and grandparents lost loved ones because they willingly died and continue to die for your freedom.  Let that sink in!  I hear our National anthem and the songs of each military branch and I weep because I am so grateful and indebted to the men and women who are still willing to fight for me today!  Are YOU willing to do that?  One of my regrets in life is that I didn’t join the Air Force after high school.  I should have.  I should have gone and been willing to sacrifice it all for my fellow Americans.  But, I was not brave enough or courageous enough then…..I would be now and if it weren’t for Hannah I might just do it.  Are you willing to make the sacrifice?  If not, then show the honor and respect to those who are willing and are doing it!

Today, and this week so far I have literally had a broken and angry heart over what I have seen and read.  Yes, did those NFL players have the right to protest?  Absolutely, it is in fact their freedom of speech that they are enacting but have they thought first about what they are protesting and second are they not at all concerned about the way in which they are doing it?  I mean, there are peaceful ways to protest without disrespecting our military, our flag and our country!  I will never understand their reasoning behind their “performance” and the statement they have made to me a woman who loves her country and respects her President and the office he holds.  Our country enables EVERYONE the same freedoms.  I do not see oppression!  I am sorry if that offends you but I do not see it!  We all have the same opportunities in life.  Now, there is no way I could be an NFL player.  One, because the last I checked they discriminated against you if you are a woman (hmmmmmmm) and second, I can’t play the dang game.  I can’t run, throw or catch a football.  It takes talent and skill that I don’t possess.  I am not smart enough to be a brain surgeon or an attorney.  I am not athletic enough to be an aerobics instructor or a PE coach.  God gave me, just like he gave each and everyone He created our own unique gifts and talents.  It is up to you to know what those are and use them.  Don’t blame others who seem to have more than you.  Don’t blame others who seem more “privileged.”  Go out and do what God called you to do.  We aren’t all going to be rich or famous.  Some people might have to work 2-3 jobs to make ends meet.  Some of our dreams and hopes might be squashed due to circumstances out of our control but take what has been handed to you and work hard and make lemonade out of your lemons.  Life is not always fair, but it is the life we have been given.  Make the most of it, stop blaming everyone for your problems or lack of opportunities.  Take responsibility for your own life and actions.  Love people.  Respect people (especially those in authority).  Love Jesus!  Take a  minute to step back and re-evaluate your life, your choices and what you are going to do next.  Stop blaming everyone else for your troubles and be humble and kind always.

In the words of Forrest Gump……

Until next time……….


What Hurricane Irma Taught Me

The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of one thing compounding on top of other things; what we didn’t expect was to have Hurricane Irma on top of us wreaking havoc even a week before she got here.  That was one crazy storm.  She shifted directions more times than Hannah changes socks in a day (and that is a lot people….a whole lot).  I won’t even try to go over with you all the different changes in direction that stupid Hurricane did, but needless to say about a week prior people (including me) started to panic slightly and preparations were made to get ready just in case we got hit.

We got hit pretty hard and in all honesty I don’t care to ride another one out.  Moments  (especially between the hours of 2am-4:30am) on Monday morning were pretty scary for me.  You could hear the rain hit the windows and the wind howling through the trees.  We were at my brother’s house (which was safer than our house due to all of our tree coverage) but it was still scary.  Dennis was working and Hannah kept saying “rain scary mama, rain scary.”  Needless to say, little sleep occurred that night.  The next day I waited to hear from Dennis when he got off work, as he was heading straight to our home to assess the damage.  Fortunately for us, we had no damage to our home.  We did have a few small trees down, TONS of debris and limbs but we were so blessed as none of our big trees were uprooted.  Our flooding was not as severe as many areas of town and that was a blessing as well.  Some of our neighbors didn’t fare as well though.  A tornado touched down in our neighborhood Monday morning at 4am and ripped through several of our neighbors yards and one neighbor had 3 huge trees uprooted and landed on their home.  Fortunately, no one was hurt.  Our whole neighborhood looked like a war zone though.  We had no power, no cable, no internet, no phone service and we were told it would be 7-10 days for restoration so Hannah, Dennis and I packed up and headed to my parents where we spent 2 nights until we heard from our neighbors that our power had been restored.  We came home Thursday and began the clean-up process.  First up, our refrigerator!  Eeewwwwww!  Dennis had made sure he got to the house several times to run our generator for our freezers so at least we kept all of that food but the fridge just had to be cleaned out and we had to start over.  But, compared to what it could have been that loss was minimal.

It has been a LONG week but Irma taught me a few things and I thought I would share those things with you now (since I can blog again as we just got our internet back today):

  • FAMILY…..how important family is.  Dennis’ and my families all rode the storm out safely and I am incredibly thankful for that.  My brother and his family took us in for 2 nights and my parents took us in for 2 nights.  They fed us, gave us a clean, cool place to stay and that time with all of them was invaluable.  Games, laughter, HELP with Hannah (LOL) since Dennis worked the majority of the time.  I wasn’t alone, in a storm with a child who has many special needs.  I am thankful.  My family came through for me in my time of need.  So very blessed.
  • NEIGHBORS…..can I just tell you how wonderful our neighbors are for a second?  Offers of a place to stay.  Texting and lots of communication before, during and after the storm.  Help cleaning up our yard.  Offers of food and anything else we might need.  Amazing neighbors, amazing neighborhood, amazing friends……
  • Facebook Friends…..far and wide who care and checked in on me!  So thankful for you all!  Friends in other states who were so concerned and even offered Hannah and I places to stay (next time I am taking one of you up on your offer)!  Oh who will the lucky one be?!?  LOL!
  • Modern day conveniences…..let’s be honest I have never lived in a time where we didn’t have electricity but WOW…..life without it is so very hard.  I am quite convinced I wouldn’t survive in a world with no electricity.  We live in the “country” and we have a well and septic tank; which is good as we don’t pay for city water, but bad because when you lose electricity, you lose your water!  So no power means no water for us…..NOT GOOD, especially if you have to use the potty!  LOL!  Internet, Cable, Phones…..not necessarily “necessities” but in our day and age a day without those things is quite strange.  I did okay because I knew that it would come on eventually but we don’t get great cell reception at our home so my fear was if something happened it would be hard to get in touch with someone.  You feel totally cut off from the world.  In fact, just today I saw there are 3 more storms in the Atlantic….Jesus take the wheel and make those storms make a u-turn please!
  • Food…….if you want good food when in a hurricane, go to my brother’s house…..we dined on pork, ribs, chicken, mac-in-cheese, broccoli casserole, baked beans, chips and dip, cake…..well, let’s just say, none of us went hungry!
  • Working in the yard is not that bad……yes, after 16 years of marriage Dennis saw me work in the yard for the very first time (I am pretty sure he took a picture to document it).  I busted my booty yesterday (and feel it today) for 5 hours.  Then today, I washed my car…..who am I?
  • I love playing games…..Skipbo, Uno, Spades……had so much fun playing games.  I had forgotten there were games besides those on my iPad that you could play.  Time with family was awesome!
  • Sharknado is a hysterical movie that everyone should watch!  Yes, we watched it before we lost power on Sunday night…..so ridiculously funny.  Made you forget a hurricane was on the way and when it hit, I looked up for sharks!  LOL!
  • Always take a potty seat with you to other people’s homes…..when your 12-year-old child’s hiney is so tiny big people potty’s are not fun!  Important lesson learned here…….
  • Invest in a blow up mattress……thankful my sister-in-law had one.  I will be buying one soon!
  • Always have bottled water stashed in your home (2-3 cases).  If another storm comes through you won’t have to go to 24 different stores in search for some (thankful for my neighbor who found cases and bought me 3).
  • Always have a supply of non-perishable snacks…..
  • Keep your phones, computer and important things backed up so you don’t run around like a crazy woman doing it the day before the storm hits!
  • NEVER run out of Vasayo Sleep, Neuro, Core Essentials, Energy or Renew…..you will thank me for this!  Always have a back-up supply!
  • Hurricanes are scary, tornados are scary….I don’t want to go through another one….but you know what the most important lesson I learned was?  It was even though I was scared…..even though I didn’t know if I would have a home to go come back to…..I knew my God was bigger than any storm.  I knew that He would protect us and no matter what happened HE had a plan.  It boils down to FAITH…..my faith grew a little stronger….my hope got a little bigger and my strength and resilience, although tested, is stronger  than I thought.  I serve a loving, gracious, merciful God  who taught me that He is indeed bigger than any storm and reminded me that NO MATTER what trials or tribulations we have here on earth we have Heaven to look forward to for eternity.

A few pictures of our Hurricane Adventures……I didn’t take a lot of our yard…….just picture piles and piles and piles of limbs, debris and trees!  UGH!

Kissing daddy goodbye last Sunday night as he headed out to work. Aunt Ra-Ra read about 40 books to my girl, which made her very happy!


Hannah and Bam-Bam, my brother’s cat….he has 3 cats but Bam-Bam was the only one who tolerated Hannah well.


Night-night Bam-Bam!


Hannah and Simon (my parents cat).


Dad and Simon….very happy because we were gone! HA! My mom texted this picture to me to show me that dad and Simon were not really missing us! HA!


Our backyard……some of our mess, post-Irma


Until next time……..