Twelve years…..twelve years ago today at 6:29am to be exact I became a mom. Wow, how fast time flies……it seems like yesterday in so many ways as I remember that day so vividly. Here we are twelve years later, having weathered many storms, celebrating the little girl who we were told would not survive birth. Here we are celebrating another year of life when throughout my entire pregnancy we were told she wouldn’t make it home from the hospital even if she was able to survive birth. Where have the years gone? They have gone by so fast and yet so slow at the same time.
Today, we celebrate a little girl whose eyes sparkle like the stars. Whose laughter infiltrates joy into our soul. Whose smile melts our hearts. A little girl who although 12 years of age is still very much a young child (which trust me can be really good and really bad all at the same time). Her innocence, oh the innocence of childhood is still there. She sees the world and people through rose-colored glasses; never seeing evil, harm or danger. She looks at everyone like they are her friend, she knows no hate. There is so much about that I am thankful for. There are some things about this that are difficult as well……I truly do still have a “toddler” in so many ways and she definitely has a mischievous side to her, which I have to watch closely! But, she is the smile in my heart and the joy in my soul. She has taught me so much, so much I would never have learned had it not been for her. I have learned to be humble, kind, to put others first and to forgive. I have learned to let things that don’t matter fall to the wayside and cling to those things that truly do. I have learned that there is always something to be thankful for, even in the most difficult of days. I have learned to notice others pain, heartaches and challenges and validate their feelings. I have learned that even when all seems hopeless, it isn’t. I have learned that you will have bad days but joy comes in the morning and that no one and nothing is more important than what is in your four walls. I have learned it is okay not to be okay and that through suffering God comforts us so that one day we might comfort others enduring difficult days. I could go on and on but you get the picture. Today I celebrate another year that we were told we would not have. Today we celebrate the most amazing little girl who stole our hearts 12 years ago. A little girl who captivated us then and still does today. Today, we celebrate Hannah, my greatest gift and biggest blessing.
Hannah, you are so full of personality. You love Andy Griffith and watch the same episodes over and over and over again; laughing hysterically. You love all genres of music but especially Southern Gospel (The Gaither Vocal Band and Sandi Patti) and Country (Carrie Underwood and Toby Keith) among others. You love Rock too and have jammed many times to “Port Chuck” and their remakes of 80’s rock and Emily Reeves too. You love Charles Billingsley and Evidence. Your favorite foods are spaghetti with pesto sauce, green beans, acorn squash and ANYTHING sweet (especially “vanilla white ice cream” as you call it) and chocolate popcorn (thanks to Mike and Allison Delaney). You love bacon more than anyone I know (this is new and you want it every morning for breakfast). You love to read books and flashcards, play Barbies, play doctor (and your favorite patients are real life people). You think anyone who comes over needs a check-up and has “broken knee caps.” HA! You LOVE Lyndsay Simmons like she is your sister and Mrs. Coppedge (Simons) too. Your speech therapist, Mrs. Deb is one of your favorite people on the planet and you always look forward to their weekly visits; as does mommy because they are real and dear friends to me. You know every different text tone on my phone and who it belongs to especially Unc, Dr. Kim and daddy! You love police officers and your favorite thing to do is go visit “Mr. Steve” in his office at the FOP. You adore “Mr. Eddie” our neighbor who is a motorcycle cop and every time you hear his motor you say, “I love you Mr. Eddie.” You are content to play all day in your playroom and enjoy picnic lunches on a beach towel on your playroom floor. You ask daily to go to “Uncle Bill and Aunt Adrienne’s house” because you want to swim in the pool and you love Aunt Adrienne’s cooking (I mean, who doesn’t)?! You tell me daily that “fevers go away, feel much better, Hannah back to school, Hannah back to church,” and my heart breaks just a little when you tell me that each day. That is my prayer sweet girl…..one day, Lord willing, you will be all well and be able to go back to school and back to church too. Until then, I am so thankful for this time that I get to spend with you (even though there are days I need a break and if truth be told you need a break from me). You are my best friend, my greatest teacher, my every heartbeat, my motivation to keep going and my greatest joy. No matter how difficult some days are for us both there is nothing better than waking up every morning to your sweet voice, big hugs and kisses. I will forever cherish you, love you and take care of you. God has something special in store for your little life and I am so thankful I was chosen to be your mom. Happy Birthday baby girl…..I cannot believe you are 12 years old……where have the years gone?
Until next time………