There are so many things I could say right now. So many things I would like to say and get a response but that isn’t possible. Today though, I just want to take a minute and remember you. I want to think about the good ole’ days, the fun we had, the memories we made and the friendship we shared. The slumber parties, the music videos we made, the fun times hanging out at our favorite places, all the date-less Friday and Saturday nights that we spent together while everyone else had boyfriends! The secrets we shared, even right before the Lord called you home and the heartbreaks that we saw each other through.
Today is bitter-sweet. Today is your birthday, but you aren’t celebrating it here on earth; because, unfortunately (for us) you are no longer here but in Heaven with Our Lord. I miss you everyday, but today especially. I miss your friendship. I miss your wisdom. I miss the laughter, tears and joy we shared over our 40 year friendship. July 28th comes around and I wish I could celebrate with you just one more time.
Oh my dear Angie, how do I pay a tribute to you that is worthy of the friend you were to me for 40 years? How do I show the love, respect and value that you were not only to me but to EVERY SINGLE PERSON that had the honor of knowing you? How can I possibly show the world just how special you were and most importantly how do I share with your sweet family the impact you made on just my life alone; not to mention all the other lives you touched along the way? How do I thank you for the friend you were to me through the good and bad times? The way you were ALWAYS there for me, especially when I was making mistake after mistake. Yet, instead of judging me, you loved me, encouraged me and prayed for me. Then, after I came to my senses….you never said “I told you so,” even though you could have more than once!
I remember you every.singe.day. I miss you every.single.day. I wish I could just have one more day with you to tell you just how loved you are and share with you from my heart the kind of friend you were to me….the best, the most loyal, the most trustworthy and the most faithful! As I sit here and type this memories are soaring through my mind and I find myself crying and laughing. What most people don’t know about you is that as sweet, kind and loving as you were you also had quite the sassy side! If it ever came to your attention that someone had gossiped about me or hurt me you threatened to not only give them a piece of your mind but also a beat-down! HA! I remember more than once you would get so mad (in your very gentle way) and say, “let me at them…I’ll teach them a thing or two.” Oh, you always had my back, like no one ever did or has since! You were my sounding board, my greatest encourager, my “tell it like it is” in the most gracious and loving way and the one person that I went to for Godly wisdom and always the person I shared my heart with and deepest secrets because I knew both of those were safe with you.
I don’t know how to write anything worthy of you. I don’t have the eloquent and adequate words to describe ALL that you did for me, ALL that you were to me and just how much I miss you; not just today on your birthday but everyday since you have been gone.
You would be so proud of your family. Your parents are the absolutely strongest, most Godly, most loving, most gracious people I know (I see exactly where you got it from). Your brother Wally and his beautiful family have encouraged me so much since you have been gone and have reached out to me at just the right times to let me know how much you loved me. Sweet Mark and your children are so precious and you would be so proud of all 4 of them. I have watched all 3 of your children grow so much and I know how proud you would be. They love and miss you but you instilled the hope of Heaven and the promises of God into each one of them and they know they will see you again! What a day that will be. I know I will have a very long line to stand in before I get to hug your neck in Heaven and get my time with you; but it will be worth it no matter how long I have to wait. No one I know has made a greater impact on people than you did. Your 4 year battle with cancer and the way you carried yourself and the unwavering faith that you had touched more hearts for The Lord and eternity than we will ever know. Oh my friend……God used you, but not just in the last 4 years of your life……He used you in the 40 years that I was blessed to call you my best friend. He used you to touch my life in so many ways; but especially for Him. I have so much to thank you for and I am just so sorry I never had the chance to adequately thank you for ALL you did for me. YOU gave me strength in some of my darkest days and YOU encouraged me and loved me when no one else did. YOU gave me hope and pointed me in the right direction more than once. YOU always thought of me before yourself and YOU loved my Hannah as if she were your own! I am forever grateful, forever changed and forever indebted to you for ALL you did for me.
Happy Birthday my dear, dear friend! I miss you more than words can say and I wish I had a way of properly honoring you and your family today and every day. I promise you this…..I pray daily for your entire family and I will always be here for them just like you were always there for me. As I told you the night before the Lord called you home…..this isn’t goodbye; this is see you soon!
Happy Birthday! I love you!
Until next time……….