Isn’t it funny how certain things can “speak” to you just at the right time? Maybe it is a song that you hear and you feel as if the person is singing right to you because the song relates to what you are going through. Maybe it is a picture that you see that brings back a memory and makes you smile and it is just the picture that you needed to see just at the moment. Maybe it is a text, card or email that appears at just the right time. Whatever it is, I think of those as God Moments…..a brief moment that lets you know He is there, hasn’t left and never will.
Yesterday, I was dusting my bedroom and again, pictures were scrolling across the computer screen. I stopped in my tracks as I watched this group of pictures that popped up. They were pictures I took of Hannah about 3 years ago holding poster-board signs for a video that I participated in for Down Syndrome awareness. We were told to write a saying or two that we wished we had known when Hannah was born. Here are the pictures I took:
I have to say, I was taken back when I read all three signs. These were things I would have told myself nearly 9 years ago if I had known what we were facing and lo and behold, they still apply today! I took these pictures at a happy and uncomplicated time in our life. I remember taking these pictures and how excited Hannah was to “help hold” the signs. I miss this little girl! I miss this smile and the joy and laughter in her eyes. I very rarely right now see “this face.” But, as I was looking at these pictures the poster-board signs apply even more to our life right now than they did when I took them and even nine years ago.
Don’t be sad, embrace this gift…..yes, there are moments of extreme sadness for me and in all honesty I find myself sometimes praying to God to help me embrace this life. Hannah is a gift, she is a rare gift that I am extremely thankful for but sometimes embracing the life we are having to live is beyond difficult; but this picture reminds me what I am fighting for, the little girl I want back and the life that we want……right now though, instead of sadness we need to embrace what we have been given; the good and the bad times because Hannah is a gift and so is this life we are living.
You are stronger than you know……wow! I have to say, this rings more true now than then! If you had told me even 2 years ago that this would be our current battle, I would have said there would be no way to endure this heartache or fight! I would have told you that I wasn’t strong enough and there was no way I could do this even with God’s help. So, far I am still hanging on and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that wouldn’t be possible without the grace of God.
God’s got this…..well, yep He does! I think that sums this all up! No matter what we go through, no matter the difficulties, the challenges, the heartache, the sickness, the valley…..God’s got this! He goes before us, we just have to follow. Let Him lead…..let Him have control…..let Him have our burdens, heartache and grief! God’s got this.
I needed these reminders…..isn’t it amazing that I was dusting my room at just the right time yesterday to see these pictures…..not amazing…..it was God giving me a much-needed God Moment!
Until next time……..