Last week was a really bad week personally…..I found myself on the defensive constantly; whether I was defending Hannah or Dennis it seemed to be a battle last week with everything. My blood is still boiling about some of the circumstances, but I am trying so hard to “consider the source” and “let it go.” All of that is easier said than done though.
I will go on the record right now and say one thing…..before you attack someone’s character and integrity have ALL the facts. Don’t blame a group of people on another person’s mistake, or “alleged mistake.” My husband is probably one of the most HONEST, HONORABLE, and LOYAL people I know. He is a man who loves the Lord, loves his family and works hard! Nobody has the right to judge others…..PERIOD! Nobody has the right to take a good man’s name and try to trash it. As I told the individuals last week……you mess with my kid or my husband I will come out fighting! Okay…..in Forrest Gump’s words…..”that is all I have to say about that.”
Well, for the last 3 months (actually almost 4) we have been dealing with Hannah and ALOT of tummy issues. I am not going to go into detail on this blog as some things need to remain private (you’re welcome dad). But, I will say, after filling her tiny body up with Miralax, Milk of Mag, Mineral Oil, flaxseed and Suppositories (all adult doses more than once a day for 3 months) and getting NO WHERE…..I finally took matters in my own hands. I spoke with several people at Hannah’s school who encouraged me to try juicing and going all-natural and organic; including using fresh wheat grass. I knew I had nothing to lose and everything to gain; so I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond on Thursday and bought a Nutri-bullet and loaded it up with spinach, pineapple, red grapes, strawberries, blueberries, flaxseed and wheat grass. Hannah drank this “smoothie” Thursday night with no results, although she LOVED it and wanted more. So, I gave it to her again Friday night. I was supposed to give her a “colon cleansing” on Saturday which would have consisted first of a suppository and then a mixture of 7-capfuls of Miralax mixed with a quart of water. I really didn’t want to go that route, but we had to do something. So, I thought if this “smoothie” didn’t work by Saturday morning, I would do what I had to do. Well, lo and behold Saturday morning after breakfast the smoothie had worked! PRAISE THE LORD. Saturday night she drank another smoothie and Sunday morning it worked……Sunday night she drank another smoothie and this morning IT WORKED! Whoo-hoo! This has been the most stressful 3 months for me and for Hannah and I am actually seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. She does go to the GI doctor on Wednesday to have an abdominal and pelvic ultrasound done and I am praying that there is nothing physically wrong; but at least we have things working again. With all of that shared, the point I am making is we are going all-natural in our home. For a long time now I have been wanting to get rid of all the processed foods and eat just fresh fruits, fresh vegetables, whole grains and lean meats (with the occasional steak thrown in there), but with all Hannah has been through with her tummy it has finally made me do this. God bless Dennis for being willing as it isn’t a “fun” way to eat, but it is necessary for our family. I have finally decided to look at food as “fuel” instead of “pleasure.” I LOVE to eat, but really eating is for one purpose and that is to keep us alive……my new motto is I eat to live not live to eat! So, here is to healthier days ahead.
On a funny note……we are always telling Hannah before she goes to school and when she is in trouble to “listen with her ears, obey and behave.” We also tell her that makes “mama and dada happy.” The other day, I had to give Henny a “physical correction,” all my CCI peeps will understand that. Usually Henny doesn’t need correcting and if she does most of the time a verbal correction is all that is necessary, but the other day it wasn’t enough. As soon as I gave Henny the physical correction she immediately did what I told her to which was to lay down. Hannah was standing there and she pointed her finger at me and said, “mama, wait.” Then she got down in front of Henny grabbed Henny’s face in her two hands (like we do to Hannah) and said to Henny, “Henny, listen with ears, obey and behave, make Hannah happy.” I started laughing so hard. Hannah looked up at me and said, “mama…..Henny sorry.” I lost it……I haven’t laughed that hard in so long. I wished later that I would have had my cell phone right there so I could have snapped a picture. It was truly the cutest thing! So, needless to say…..Hannah is “hearing” and “understanding” Dennis and me when we tell her something! She has been SO GOOD lately……I am watching her grow up and become a sweet, loving, obedient little lady and it makes the last 7 1/2 years worth it! I am not going to ever sit here and say that it has been easy, because it hasn’t and there are days that I wish that things were different…..but, watching her grow into this little lady that loves Jesus, Dennis and me, her school and her friends…..well, it takes some of that pain away that I feel everyday. I have said before that my heart hurts ALOT…..I think in some ways, it always will…..but, I am just trying to cherish everyday…..even the days that are the hardest!