I can’t say that I am sad to see 2012 go! In fact, I am almost joyful about it. There is something about saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new that is refreshing….a brand new start. I have to admit that I think I spent more time praying for the Lord to come and get us this year than I ever have before; especially in the last two months when Obama got re-elected! HA!
2012 wasn’t all bad….I have some good memories; but for the most part I could have gone without some of the things that happened in 2012. Mainly, Hannah’s 3rd open-heart surgery and the 2 months leading up to it and also my lifelong friend, Angie’s passing. Unfortunately, those are the 2 things that I will remember 2012 for; so because of that…..I am happy to see it come to a close.
My prayer for 2013 is that it is a year that is full of joy, happiness, peace and accomplishments. I have set a couple of goals for 2013, which I never do….but, this year I want to feel fulfilled and to feel like I am more than just Dennis’ wife and Hannah’s mom. Not that those are “bad” things to be….but, I think everyone needs to feel accomplished and to do something that gives them purpose….more than just cleaning, cooking, chauffering….well, you get the picture!
I am excited because for the first time since Hannah was born; actually for the first time since I married Dennis 11 1/2 years ago; one of my best friends, Kristin and I are going on a Girl’s Trip to New York City! I am so excited about it. I have been to New York City several times and it is by far my favorite place to go! I love everything about it….the hustle and bustle; the shopping; the food…..EVERYTHING! The only part of it I dread is the traveling as I HATE TO FLY! I avoid it at all costs….but I have to if I want to go, so I am going to do it. Kristin knows that I will be in panic-mode the entire time, and she is okay with that! HA! Fortunately, she will have a calming effect on me…..maybe I can get my doctor to prescribe something for me that will “put me in a zone.” HA! I am excited about it…..nervous about leaving Hannah and Dennis; but it is time and Dennis says he can handle it! I have NEVER been away from Hannah in 7 1/2 years. Dennis and I have NEVER taken a trip without her. I have never been away from her at night…..so this is quite a HUGE step for me and I will doubt myself and want to change my mind about going even up to the point that I am stepping on the plane…..but, I am going to be strong and do this not only for Hannah; but for me. I do think it will be good to give Hannah a break from me and let her see that mama can leave but will always come back like dada does every time that he has gone out-of-town. Big steps for me, but I think I am ready! Not to say that I won’t call and check on Hannah 20+ times a day! HA!
So, big things at the beginning of 2013….excited, nervous and READY to put 2012 in the past! So, Happy New Year to my readers and here’s hoping that 2013 is better than 2012! See you next year!